Smoked twice. Feel like shit about it. Really wanted a smoke in the morning. Thanks to the encouragement of my amazing girlfriend overcame the temptation. Felt great all day about being a non smoker and having nearly kicked the tobacco out of my system. Went out for someones leaving drinks and in the company of some French guys ended up having a cigarette. Then a little tipsy on my way home, bought a pack of ten from tescos. Took one and binned the rest. Smoked my second cigarette. Felt appalling as a human being.
Now I can feel myself wanting another smoke, I can smell the filth on myself and I'm really peed off and angry. Still I hope this will serve in contrast to the fantastic feeling I had as a non-smoker this afternoon and spur me on to avoid all cigarettes in the future.
Sorry for letting myself down!
Still I haven't touched a take out coffee...
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